My life would suck without you.

These are the perfect lyrics when I think of my son, he is amazing & when I look at him all I can think of is how utterly lucky I am that he is in my life.  It has been 16 months since he came into my life & I'm thankful each day for him, I am just as smitten with him as the day I gave birth to him & hope that never changes.  

In other news I have been actually doing something about my physical fitness lately, I've been walking 2-3 miles each day in an effort to kick start my metabolism & weight loss. I have about 20 pounds to lose for my happiness and about 30 according to my heigh standards. I really haven't kicked the soda habit, other than my 46 day detox from lint.

This brings me to my next topic: Making new friends, In addition to my new habits I have made new friends which is absolutely amazing! I look forward to talking & walking every night because I actually have someone to have a conversation with. My older friends in the neighborhood, of whom I couldn't be myself with have taken a back seat to my new friendships & it's kinda nice.

I love doing favors for friends, but not so much when the person is abusing the fact that you're friendly.  A couple of weeks ago a neighbor texted me to ask if I was busy on Friday night because his wife had been wanting to see a new movie for Mother's Day.  So silly, I thought he meant like give her a day off & allow "us" to go, well he wanted me to watch their 2 year old little girl while they went.  This man makes a 6 figure salary & they have the largest house in the neighborhood, however I did not get paid for watching her that night. Well last week they came over and wanted to know if I would be willing to watch her permanently since the (pregnant) wife could be going back to work over the summer. I've had time to think about it & they invited me over to dinner last Saturday so I went over & while I was there they asked me if I could watch her Thursday(today) from 12-5 for the mum to go on a job interview.  I am not expecting any payment, but a few dollars here & there wouldn't be such a horrible thing since it's 5 hours of my afternoon after all. I have already emailed them saying I would watch the little girl throughout the summer until the new baby arrived but due to my possibility of moving & returning to school I don't think it would be fair for me to stay signed on after September(when the new baby arrives). I also gave a price of $150 & to that they replied " we will keep that in mind if she"the mom" gets the job", I hate to say it but its kind of a condition with the price as much lower & I feel like it wouldn't be worth it. 

Anyway this was a definite all over post, but I felt like I needed to put it somewhere. Thanks for reading...

1 is the loneliest number...

Disclaimer: This post is very Woe is Me...

Whenever I'm feeling a little more down than usual I use my "go-to" technique of Counting my blessings. At times I get a little upset & feel lonely when I sit on the thought of my husband working 2nd shift & how there really is no end in sight. It's quite difficult at times to do everything by myself in the afternoon & through the night & It would just be great to have an extra set of hands or a back up tag team person home for me.  The thing I worry about most are my migraines, when I get one I am virtually useless, I can't think, see straight, or function normally so I will usually head on over to my mother in law's house.

My blessings are so over the top that I really feel bad complaining at all, but I just wish this 1 part of my life could be fixed.  I am thankful that hubby wakes up early enough in the morning to share most of our day with us until he goes to work so I don't really have that much to be down about. He mostly works 6(sometimes 7) days a week so we usually make the most of our Sunday's & actually go out & spend time as a family, we grocery shop on Thursday mornings as a family & I really treasure our time together.

I have some seriously fabulous friends & family, however they all live between 5-7 hours away so the phone or web are my methods of keeping in contact with them. I visit about every 3 months & my parents come to visit sometime in between so that all helps some, but I just feel alone at times. We're hoping to move back North after Spring, but it will be a difficult time as we have an amazing home that I love, hubby has a great paying job, & his mom & sister live here. We more than likely will be starting over due to increased house prices & a decrease in hubby's pay, but we're completely ready just to be where we want.

Making new friends that live closer to me has definitely been a thought on my mind lately but I just can't seem to get out there.  I am a part of a few mommy groups, but haven't been to any play dates because of my fear of fitting in & germs. On Sunday I spoke with my dad on the phone & he suggested getting involved in a church & my only fear there would be leaving baby bird with adults that I've never met & he reassured me that these people would be "Godly" & I should feel safe.  I've really been thinking about this & I'm pretty set on going ahead with it, I could fellowship on Sunday & Wednesday nights & meet some pretty awesome people in the process. I'm not exactly sure what will happen with hubby as he doesn't really "do church" & that is our only day together, but I've got to make some kind of change for myself.

To other Stay At Home Moms:
How do you go about meeting friends & keeping your sanity in your day to day life of raising your children?