Showing posts with label church. Show all posts
Showing posts with label church. Show all posts

Thursday, January 20, 2011

1 is the loneliest number...

Disclaimer: This post is very Woe is Me...

Whenever I'm feeling a little more down than usual I use my "go-to" technique of Counting my blessings. At times I get a little upset & feel lonely when I sit on the thought of my husband working 2nd shift & how there really is no end in sight. It's quite difficult at times to do everything by myself in the afternoon & through the night & It would just be great to have an extra set of hands or a back up tag team person home for me.  The thing I worry about most are my migraines, when I get one I am virtually useless, I can't think, see straight, or function normally so I will usually head on over to my mother in law's house.

My blessings are so over the top that I really feel bad complaining at all, but I just wish this 1 part of my life could be fixed.  I am thankful that hubby wakes up early enough in the morning to share most of our day with us until he goes to work so I don't really have that much to be down about. He mostly works 6(sometimes 7) days a week so we usually make the most of our Sunday's & actually go out & spend time as a family, we grocery shop on Thursday mornings as a family & I really treasure our time together.

I have some seriously fabulous friends & family, however they all live between 5-7 hours away so the phone or web are my methods of keeping in contact with them. I visit about every 3 months & my parents come to visit sometime in between so that all helps some, but I just feel alone at times. We're hoping to move back North after Spring, but it will be a difficult time as we have an amazing home that I love, hubby has a great paying job, & his mom & sister live here. We more than likely will be starting over due to increased house prices & a decrease in hubby's pay, but we're completely ready just to be where we want.

Making new friends that live closer to me has definitely been a thought on my mind lately but I just can't seem to get out there.  I am a part of a few mommy groups, but haven't been to any play dates because of my fear of fitting in & germs. On Sunday I spoke with my dad on the phone & he suggested getting involved in a church & my only fear there would be leaving baby bird with adults that I've never met & he reassured me that these people would be "Godly" & I should feel safe.  I've really been thinking about this & I'm pretty set on going ahead with it, I could fellowship on Sunday & Wednesday nights & meet some pretty awesome people in the process. I'm not exactly sure what will happen with hubby as he doesn't really "do church" & that is our only day together, but I've got to make some kind of change for myself.

To other Stay At Home Moms:
How do you go about meeting friends & keeping your sanity in your day to day life of raising your children?