My life would suck without you.

These are the perfect lyrics when I think of my son, he is amazing & when I look at him all I can think of is how utterly lucky I am that he is in my life.  It has been 16 months since he came into my life & I'm thankful each day for him, I am just as smitten with him as the day I gave birth to him & hope that never changes.  

In other news I have been actually doing something about my physical fitness lately, I've been walking 2-3 miles each day in an effort to kick start my metabolism & weight loss. I have about 20 pounds to lose for my happiness and about 30 according to my heigh standards. I really haven't kicked the soda habit, other than my 46 day detox from lint.

This brings me to my next topic: Making new friends, In addition to my new habits I have made new friends which is absolutely amazing! I look forward to talking & walking every night because I actually have someone to have a conversation with. My older friends in the neighborhood, of whom I couldn't be myself with have taken a back seat to my new friendships & it's kinda nice.

I love doing favors for friends, but not so much when the person is abusing the fact that you're friendly.  A couple of weeks ago a neighbor texted me to ask if I was busy on Friday night because his wife had been wanting to see a new movie for Mother's Day.  So silly, I thought he meant like give her a day off & allow "us" to go, well he wanted me to watch their 2 year old little girl while they went.  This man makes a 6 figure salary & they have the largest house in the neighborhood, however I did not get paid for watching her that night. Well last week they came over and wanted to know if I would be willing to watch her permanently since the (pregnant) wife could be going back to work over the summer. I've had time to think about it & they invited me over to dinner last Saturday so I went over & while I was there they asked me if I could watch her Thursday(today) from 12-5 for the mum to go on a job interview.  I am not expecting any payment, but a few dollars here & there wouldn't be such a horrible thing since it's 5 hours of my afternoon after all. I have already emailed them saying I would watch the little girl throughout the summer until the new baby arrived but due to my possibility of moving & returning to school I don't think it would be fair for me to stay signed on after September(when the new baby arrives). I also gave a price of $150 & to that they replied " we will keep that in mind if she"the mom" gets the job", I hate to say it but its kind of a condition with the price as much lower & I feel like it wouldn't be worth it. 

Anyway this was a definite all over post, but I felt like I needed to put it somewhere. Thanks for reading...

1 is the loneliest number...

Disclaimer: This post is very Woe is Me...

Whenever I'm feeling a little more down than usual I use my "go-to" technique of Counting my blessings. At times I get a little upset & feel lonely when I sit on the thought of my husband working 2nd shift & how there really is no end in sight. It's quite difficult at times to do everything by myself in the afternoon & through the night & It would just be great to have an extra set of hands or a back up tag team person home for me.  The thing I worry about most are my migraines, when I get one I am virtually useless, I can't think, see straight, or function normally so I will usually head on over to my mother in law's house.

My blessings are so over the top that I really feel bad complaining at all, but I just wish this 1 part of my life could be fixed.  I am thankful that hubby wakes up early enough in the morning to share most of our day with us until he goes to work so I don't really have that much to be down about. He mostly works 6(sometimes 7) days a week so we usually make the most of our Sunday's & actually go out & spend time as a family, we grocery shop on Thursday mornings as a family & I really treasure our time together.

I have some seriously fabulous friends & family, however they all live between 5-7 hours away so the phone or web are my methods of keeping in contact with them. I visit about every 3 months & my parents come to visit sometime in between so that all helps some, but I just feel alone at times. We're hoping to move back North after Spring, but it will be a difficult time as we have an amazing home that I love, hubby has a great paying job, & his mom & sister live here. We more than likely will be starting over due to increased house prices & a decrease in hubby's pay, but we're completely ready just to be where we want.

Making new friends that live closer to me has definitely been a thought on my mind lately but I just can't seem to get out there.  I am a part of a few mommy groups, but haven't been to any play dates because of my fear of fitting in & germs. On Sunday I spoke with my dad on the phone & he suggested getting involved in a church & my only fear there would be leaving baby bird with adults that I've never met & he reassured me that these people would be "Godly" & I should feel safe.  I've really been thinking about this & I'm pretty set on going ahead with it, I could fellowship on Sunday & Wednesday nights & meet some pretty awesome people in the process. I'm not exactly sure what will happen with hubby as he doesn't really "do church" & that is our only day together, but I've got to make some kind of change for myself.

To other Stay At Home Moms:
How do you go about meeting friends & keeping your sanity in your day to day life of raising your children?

gifts, appointments, & a resolution; just a normal Tuesday! :)

I've been wanting to blog about what's been on my mind lately, but haven't found a clever way to explain so I'm just going for it.  Presents, gifts,treats, surprises....

It has to be obvious why this topic is on the top layer of my brain lately; Christmas.  This holiday isn't stressful because of families or traveling, to me it's stressful because of the search for the perfect present & need to please others.  I wish I could afford to gift each of my friends at Christmas with amazing & extravagant jewels but I just can't.  I am a stay at home mom so the presents that I can gift come from saving money throughout the year or from the hubby's bank account so it's no small task to pick up something special for my friends. I adore my family & friends so of course I want to show them how much I appreciate them & feel for them, so it's a hard place to be in when you can't fully express it by surprising them with something they'll love. I think my solution to this for next year is to try to gift throughout the year for birthday's & send cards, it seems more personal & will hopefully take the pressure off but I'll keep you updated.

I have been insanely busy with baby bird's birthday, Christmas, family, snow storms, company, New Years, & Dr's appointments. I'm still struggling to figure out which path my blog will go in, but I'm trying tons of new things & trying to get settled so hopefully soon I will figure out what my blog will be about. Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to read, follow, & comment; I am insanely grateful & you guys make me feel great!

Baby bird had his 1 year well-child visit today & his stats were 21lbs 5oz & 29 1/2 in long, I couldn't be any more proud of him, I felt such tremendous love & pride while sharing moments with family & friends this holiday.

My last thought is more of an announcement & acknowledgement that I've been doing something wrong, I chose to monitor my phone conversations about a month ago & I was spending 2-3 hours on the phone throughout the day. I was so upset with the time & attention this was stealing from baby bird that I've decided to cut down on my socialization. This means telling my mom I've got to go more, not calling friends as much, & even missing a call or 2 just to give that extra time to baby bird, because I want him to feel my love & attention that I so adore giving to him.  I will be blogging either at nap time or bed time only, which I've been doing, so not too much of a change here. So that's the end of my rant for today, don't feel bad to my friends if we don't talk as much because I do care & just think of how happy you'll be when you receive your birthday card or present on "your" special day! :)

tBirdie

Lovely day

I enjoyed the most lovely day today, Sunday January 2, 2011! As I may or may not have mentioned before I have friends visiting for the New Year from Alabama & Virginia and we have had the most amazing time! For New Years we got all gussied up & had a lovely dinner at Red Rocks, it was great to share their company. That night we played adult games & watched my neighbor's fireworks from my doorstep.  Yesterday my friends from Virginia left early in the morning, but I still had an amazing day with my buddy from Alabama. There is definitely something to be said of friendship when you haven't seen a friend in over a year & the fun just seems to pick up right where you left off. It has been so nice shopping, having pedicures, & watching movies in our pj's on my sofa. All of my company will be gone tomorrow & we will be alone again, I always feel a little down after the holidays knowing that there is no definite scheduled gathering for a while. 

I'm so thankful to have amazing friends that I can count on, whether it be through an e-mail, text, phone call, or message.  Life is so good right now that I plan on rethinking this every time I feel down.

For now I leave you with a little picture from my little one's birthday riding along in his favorite birthday gift from his daddy! Enjoy! :)